Hello world! A new girl in the town

This is my first post. In fact, I don’t know how to start it! I suppose that I should feel me a little silly. Well, I’ll try to fix things…

My name is Ross (I like to name this way). I’m  a doctor.

It’s a very useful profession. You always have different options about people you need: you know lawyers,  chefs,  barmen, etc., and if you aren’t satisfied with their service, you can fire them. But in medical business… it’s complicated because you need someone you can trust. So, for me, I’m the best option.

As everyone, I have preferences and things like me. In my case, I love Pucca. In another post, I’ll talk about her. For now, it’s enough to say she is my favorite character.

I want to say that this blog is mainly for me. Sometimes, I feel lost in virtual, like a person in a new city. I look everywhere, trying to find answers but I’m afraid to ask. Actually,  I’m a shy girl.

However, if someone wants to give an opinion, it will be welcome. Only I want to know that I’m like Echo: people can try to chase me all time and never they won’t  catch me. And it’s not because I deceive them or I don’t like them, just I love loneliness.

The Stranger, Albert Camus

This is the audio book from a extraordinary novel by Camus, The Stranger.

https://www.ivoox.com/player_ej_928495_4_1.html?c1=ff6600

A trip without return

Written by Enrique Diaz       Translated by Ross

 Let’s travel without moving us.

To see daily afternoon 

Through another glance,

To see everyday glance

Through different afternoon.

Let’s go without to move us.

Xavier Villaurrutia

This happened in a common morning which I used to go for a walk by Mexico City subway while I was unemployed. I went out from my apartment located in the terrible Morelos neighborhood, unfortunately, a place known for its violence blocks immersed in the ‘City of Hope’.

“City of Hope“, I thought, “It is better called it ‘City of Hopeless‘”. I was walking on Canal del Norte Avenue but I didn’t know why I had been done because I didn’t like to walk among streets shops and many beggars who try to get some money from people that didn’t have another option than to walk through that street.

I turned my head and looked to the sky. My eyes bumped into the elevated train rail between Martin Carrera and Santa Anita stations. Suddenly, I wanted to go on board by subway in that moment. I bought only a ticket, despite I used to buy two.

I don’t know if I told you but I like to travel by subway. However, I try to avoid it during high traffic hours. There are many people, many faces, beings that expect to be narrated; in spite of that everybody averts their gaze than others, I think they are afraid to another person discovers their secrets. Eyes tell many things about people, something that I can to sense immediately. All this is very curious for me.

When I arrived at platform, I had planned my trip: I was going to go until Morelos station, and I was going to transfer to Buenavista terminal where I could look the huge and old train stations, a place where many passages had been traveled to different point of Mexico and now it was only a dream. But this morning the destiny had prepared me a big surprise.

I had traveled for six stations and when I was about to get off train car something stopped to continue my trip: I felt someone observed to me, I turned my head and I found a beautiful woman about 40 years old with red hair. She wore a black suit and high-heel shoes. She looked enigmatic and sensual. I thought she was waiting for someone but later I realized I was wrong.

She had been waiting for me and I didn’t know until that moment. I went down stairs quickly and walked to her even though it cost me my life. With a little luck (something that I have always had), I got to be close her but I did it on the sly. I simulated I hurried on so I wouldn’t miss the train.

In that moment our glances met each other and she said to me directly with a beautiful smile: ‘Good morning, Armando’. That confounded me but I didn’t really matter because I want to talk to her so much than the fact that she knew my name lacked importance for me. Finally, the train arrived and we went on board. We sit together and we started to talk. During the talk, I realized she knew another thing about me. I was intrigued but I couldn’t leave the conversation. When I asked her name, she answered:

—Oh, you know it!

—I swear I don’t—I said but she pretended she hadn’t listened to me.

We let time passed without I could become aware that we had gone over 13 or 14 stations of the line. While the train ran, I listened from her very improbable assertions about myself, things even I didn’t know it but I thought were true in a sense. But when I wanted to know about her, she only smiled and said that it was better to talk about me.

For a moment I had the idea I stand up and say good bye with politeness. Until now, I don’t know why I couldn’t do it. I didn’t understand how she knew many things about me. Suddenly, she told me that the meeting with her wasn’t by causality the other way around: I must have a meeting with my destiny.

I hadn’t believed in the destiny because I thought that it was a consequence of our actions. So, I hadn’t analyzed the actions in my own life. From that moment, I remembered some vague events from my childhood and my youth that I wanted to change. Yes, it is never too late to turn the rudder of the beautiful ship called life.

But suddenly I felt that I hadn’t much time and I began to a cold sweat. In that moment, my admiration and my attraction for this lady disappeared: I knew who was her. She became invisible before my eyes and I wished strongly she would disappear. I closed my eyes and I simulated to be asleep, I hoped that all was only a dream and I would wake up soon. At the end inside this wagons people ended their daydreams, not achieved goals and even slept when the time in bed wasn’t enough, or because didn’t like to give up the seat to a lady, maybe didn’t see inevitable travelers’ face. But I couldn’t be like them despite I really wanted it.

‘What have I done?’, I thought, ‘All my life I’ve waited for being happy things that never are going to happen.’

I always had been depending on other people to aspire my own happiness. I never could love a woman even if I would want to do it and now when I really wanted to close this lady with a romantic purpose I didn’t have enough time. By the way, what is the time? It’s not another thing that all good and bad things, joys and pains, which I was aligned for a long time. I thought I level inside a horde, but l was only surrendered many souls. There wasn’t much time, of course, there wasn’t.

At the end, the woman who I had been talking disappeared. So, I got up from my seat quickly and went to wagon’s doors. ‘I will get out just here’ I thought. I believed that nothing had happened. When I started to feel calm turned my head and I saw the lady again. Besides, I saw another person: me. I was just in the same seat where I had been. But I was asleep so peacefully that I didn’t want to wake up myself. Perhaps I thought it was silly to do it also. Unexpectedly, I realized I couldn’t move me although I wanted it. In that moment I only could ask me: ‘How much time would happen before all realized that I wasn’t asleep?’

The best phrases in Twitter

I have wanted to finish this year with some phrases that I have liked so much than I stressed like favorites in my Twitter’s timeline. I want show gratitude to all people that have contributed in this list; even they don’t known about it.

As usual, some phrases will shine more than others, but I think that all are very important because they hold a great truth.

You will notice that some have a special design and even include my own opinion. I have tried to write the author of the phrases whenever possible.

I hope that this collection like you.

January:

02.

March:

09.

April:

15.

24.

Campaign for better Ortography @OrtografiaReal. In this poster, the author tries to show, in a funny way, some mistakes with specific words Spanish. Some words have been accepted by Spanish Real Academy because of a constant wrong usage.

 

May:

05.

05. Ignorant people’s excuse is to say that it is not important the way of writing, but it is understandable @0RTOGRAFIA. In this phrase, I can’t avoid to think in Garcia Marquez, a Colombian author, who one day had a similar idea.

15. The stupidity is an extraordinary illness: the patient doesn’t suffer by it, but other people do. @0RTOGRAFIA. Now I understand why many people have this ‘illness’ and even are happy for it.

June:

17.

28. Sometimes we don’t say what we feel, not because we do not speak, but because we don’t know how say it. @0RTOGRAFIA I know that many men will nod when read this.

July:

01.

04. The first 40 year of childhood is the most difficult @AndyRogerandi. So, all time after this is simple, isn’t?

08.

19. Our worst battle will be always between what we know and what we feel. @Fil0S0FIA It mean, is will be against our self

25.

31. I learned that to be happy is appreciate what I have. The confidence is not given, it is earned. A friend is not anybody, but who demonstrate it. @Fil0S0FIA. This is a great truth we shouldn’t forget. So, our life will be less disappointing.

August

10.

18. It sad put full stop chapters in our life, but if we don’t do it we won’t write new and better stories. @0RTOGRAFIA. Many people can’t start again in their life’s because of they don’t want finish some things.

18.

22. Don’t confuse my personality with my attitude. My personality is who I am; my attitude depends who you are. @0RTOGRAFIA. This phrase is very useful when we are anxious for other people’s response.

 

September

09. Who say nothing not always award. Sometimes doesn’t want to discuss with idiots. @GramaticaReal. Diego Fernandez de Cevallos is right: it is very difficult to have dealings with idiots.

10. The characters appear in my mind: sometimes are funny, unreal, hidden, amputate, severed, many times are decayed but are always human beings @Villaurrutia75. Typical company for a writer.

12. You must be worried for your consciousness, not for you reputation. You consciousness is what you are; your reputation is what others think about you. @OrtografiaReal. At the end, it will be more important your opinion because anybody will be with you.

18.

26.

27.

October

22.

23.

30. Cowards die several times before pass away, brave just taste the death once. Ayrton Senna @Villaurrutia75. This phrase makes me think about the importance to be brave without to fear death.

November

4. I give love who transmit me love; I give confidence whom earns it and respect whom deserves it. @EresCurioso. Because everyone don’t deserves my attention.

08.

10.  An intellectual is a person which mind look at itself. Albert Camus @Villaurrutia75. It is better to be a person that doesn’t care others’ business.

10.

11.

14. Never is late too late to become the person you might have been be @OCCMundial I think doesn’t matter how many times you have fallen, always you can get up again.

15. And say the words that are said, and eat things that eat, and dream things that dream, and I know you will not be. @Villaurrutia75

16. Talk about one’s self is also a way of hidden oneself. Nietzsche. @PoesiaYRelatos. Will be this the reason that people talk a lot?

20.

21. If you leave your fears of your life, you have more space to live your dreams. @OCCMundial Do you have think how many fears are there in your life?

23. Sometimes life put wonderful people on our road, but doesn’t mark them with fluorescent marker. You must to focus a little. @Guapo_oficial There is many people that go through our lives…

28.

30. Don’t leave to love who care you, and don’t neglect who love you. @Fil0S0FIA You always must to appreciate people that are with you.

 

December

01. Never say I can do it: get up, sigh, smile and go ahead. If you fight for what you want, sooner or later, you get it. @Fil0S0FIA. That is a good phrase to begin this New Year.

01. When a woman cries for a man is because she misses him, and when a man cries for a woman is because he loves her. @Fil0S0FIA. Personally, I don’t agree with this idea. I put it in this list because of romantic people.

05. Molière wrote for his grave: Here lies Molière, king of actors. In this moment plays a dead, and he really does well. @EresCurioso I want to be like Molière: to play my own role to perfection.

05.

11. A country has its true power in people with talent and education, not with ten tens of thousands of weapons. We must to change our concept. @Villaurrutia75 Talent and Education are the real wealth. When we change our concept, we will be better people, I mean, better country.

12.

13.  I am reader, because not only I have a life, I choose to have many lives. Read not only become an educated person, also more interesting. @OrtografiaReal When you read, you discover other worlds. Because of this, I can’t sufficiently emphasize the importance of reading.

13. If I have to admire those who love with all their soul is that they bring to light the human misery of those who didn’t appreciate them. @GarciaNoemi07

14. In the greatest crisis, heart is broken or is harden. Balzac @LetrasBreves. A crisis means ‘opportunity’ also. I think you can grow up or sink.

17. I don’t know how my shyness dared to both: if I weren’t so shy, I wouldn’t be so bold @Villaurrutia75 I think it is a beautiful oxymoron, isn’t?

18. Micro stories tell us something little, but it has a big meaning @AcademiaE. Few words contain many ideas.

21.

22. Only you really want something that you fear lose @pradobenjamin I wonder if love is synonymous of possession.

24.

25.

25. Who hasn’t Christmas in its heart; never will it not find it under a tree. Roy L. Smith @SergioSarmiento

28.

29.  When mediocre people don’t understand you, they attack you @EresCurioso Can you add something to this?

31.

 

Robin Williams. In memorian

The son of captain Trueno was never a son worthy of his father He became a poet and not a wild beast He was mom’s child (Miguel Bosé) In those days, it has been written y very likely it will continue writing about life’s work of this actor and comedian. I don’t want to join, […]

The a la menthe

An amazing dance across a blue laser field. Enjoy it!

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